as a child my mom called me 'sarah sunshine'. at some point i realized that the sweet nickname didn't allow for cloudy days, for darker times, for the sadness that i often felt.
for most of my life i've struggled with the imbalance i've felt between the person that i am and the person that i thought i was supposed to be. in that struggle, i damn near killed 'sarah sunshine', as i grew to believe more and more that i was my sadness and any joy i experienced was only a facade.
i've been on a journey of sorts, with all paths leading back to myself. to the self that i abandoned. to the self that i never knew. to the self that i feared. and on this journey, i've come to realized that my mom was right. i am 'sarah sunshine'.
and so, i'm reclaiming my sunshine. embracing it. letting it warm others. wondering what will grow from it. feeling it within myself, for myself.
i'm trusting my joy.
shine on, friends.
