i'm back in the field.
i thought i was done capturing images for reclamation, but realize now that the project is as much about me and my story as it is about that of others.
now that i have the opportunity to bring this project to print, to a larger audience (thank you, thank you, arrowhead regional arts council), i am seeing that the photo.making and thought.sharing that happened there was a legitimate way for me to express the darkness, the emptiness, the grief that i felt within as i was working on foreclosure recovery. my sadness had nothing to do with a personal financial crisis, but so much to do with my sense of home, my sense of self.
i'm in a very different place today. one where i can see and feel and truly experience joy, light, abundance. with this new perspective, i've been reluctant (terrified) to step back to all those images, all those memories. i see now that if i am to make sense of the personal story, i must go back and take another look from my new vantage point.
of course, it's so much harder than i thought it would be...
(there's a new online format ahead for me in the near future... the old ones no longer seem to fit. imagine that.)
